One day…

So I have just returned from performing at an amazing communal space in Uffculme called Magelake Hall where I was fortunate enough to play with Mike Denham and Steve Graham. An amazing night with many new songs introduced into our repertoire. One such being “My Lord what a morning” which I hadn’t sung since I was a little one in Alfred Sutton Primary School. It took me back to singing in the choir and the fun that we used to have working out parts, the harmonies and solos etc. It also took me to a time of freedom and fun. I always knew I wanted to be a singer and actress since Mr Carpenter asked the whole class of us 10 year olds - What do you want to be when you grow up? When you are 30? Well I cannot speak for the other children in the class but I know I am now doing exactly what I wanted to do and I have finally realised that this is my JOB! After years of thinking a proper job was office, teaching, 9 to 5 etc etc I have finally come to the conclusion that my singing and performing is enough and I am earning my money from my profession. Which sounds weird to some people that I have only just realised but I have been living with “Imposter “ syndrome for many years and really am now just realising my talent, yes talent. Many people do try to bring you down and belittle your achievements and I realised that many of them do not have what I have and have worked hard for. My most cutting statement that still irks me now was “You don’t work, you just sing”. Well if singing is not working I don’t care if i never work again but I will always be singing until my breath has gone from me.